Saturday, March 21, 2015

paradigms in the pillars.

Since I have been back to America, what has slowly been attempting to present itself to me as a paradigm that is skewed, so incredibly skewed, has come to a screeching smack, straight into my face.

Flick on lightbulb.

It's this limited thinking that so many people seem to reside in. "I have commitments, responsibilities-I am not worth it enough to live our my dreams-I have stuff so I cannot leave." I have had intimate moments with each and every one of these excuses and it has woken up an even crazier beast inside me that will not let me fall into such a paradigm; ever.

Let me tell you a secret...PIGS DON'T HAVE TO FLY BEFORE YOU CAN EXTEND INTO YOUR TRUE SELF; A LIFE MORE FULFILLED. 

I promise.

Life is brief. No one will ever fully know the true you, the one that tries to speak to you each and every passing day. That is why it is imperative that you listen to that voice, and you do exactly what it is telling you to do because if it is right for you, then it is right for everyone else. For the universe. The collective 'self.'

Dare to kick up some dust.

Do it.

X

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Star.star.star.star.star, a restaurant & me.


Dotted the I’s, and crossed the T’s.
I’m not interested. I don’t even five star myself.
Good sir walks me to the door.

“So I see that you were living in New South Wales. I hear the beer is expensive?”

Me:

“Yes, that’s why everyone does coke.”

Good Sir:
“Like Coca-Cola?”

Me:
“Nope. Like Crack cocaine. It’s cheaper in the long run and the high lasts longer.”

I escort myself to my car thinking about what just transpired…

My first thought:
“Nailed it.”

Days later I receive a call from Good Sir. He wanted to thank me for my time and for also being the ‘funniest interview they have ever experienced. And, if it was ok, he would like to keep my CV on file.’

Me:

“Nailed it.”
x

Balance.


I am a Libra. For some people, this means nothing, and for others, they may see where I’m headed with 
this.

The scales. My sign. So what have I been searching for my whole life, toiling too far this way and a bit too far that way? Balance. I have come to find over the years though that perhaps the balance is found in the imbalance. That the neutral placement for me to ‘operate best’ is an off-balanced balance. Is this making sense?

We have been taught that if the measurements aren’t perfect, that if 1 + 1 doesn’t equal 2, then there has to be a problem. Why can’t 2 + 0 be the better way to get to 2? It is a dance that we have to play with, balance; something that gently guides us back to what is a perfect middle ground for us.

The pendulum that is life, this master scale in the realm of all things, will always bring you back to balance, if you trust it.  Picture it as ocean waves, some days the tide is high and rough, but the next moment, the next days it could be mistaken as sleeping, the glassy surface sparkling in the wake of one’s arm, cutting through this stroke and the next.

Balance.

It speaks for itself. 

Monday, March 16, 2015

En Su Cuerpo



What does it mean to be in and of one’s body? Is it a feeling? A place? Is it a word that can encompass everything you are feeling at an exact moment in time? Is it the way your breath streams in one nostril and gently flows out the other? Does your heart beat a little more slowly, calmly, soundly?  Is it something we run away from, afraid to be found in the dark corners of it’s silence, rawness, vastness?

Is it the silence that’s bore in the hours between the living, the non-accepting and the hiding…?

There’s this flux, this rhythm and balance that surrounds us, for we cannot grasp it; it speaks to us like the wind.

What then is the secret for tapping into this inner word, rhythm, beat, this inner wind? For there is no secret- it’s simply as obvious as being, as breathing.

It takes stopping, and being. Becoming fully present into the limbs of your own tree, rooting and digging your way into your own grounding. A grounding that allows you to take inventory of what is you, what you are.

Shine a light on that. Accept it. Love it. Own it. For no one but you will fully understand the depths, the vastness of your soul.

We are all here on our own path, and agendas. Dare to get dirty in tilling the soil of your own-ness. Feel fully, this life, your journey, en su cuerpo. 

x