because im scared too

I want you when you don't want you

I want your flaws and your imperfections

I want your shortcomings and your fears

I want your anxieties, your fears and your pain

I want you when you don't want you anymore, when you don't know what to do

I want you in the sunshine and in the fog

When you can't see straight and don't know where to take your next step 

I want you in the violent turbulence of the waking of your soul

I want you in rest, in tranquil peace and surrendered trust 

I want you in melodic beating of hearts as your breath merges into one with mine

I want you when it's cold and your teeth are chattering and your heart grows cold 

I want you to find your warmth within me

I want you when you're broken and torn in the the debris of your own tapestry

I want to patch you up with the twinkling pieces of my heart and soul, creating a mosaic of us

I want you when you're alone and unsure where to turn, as the world beats you up and makes you feel small and worthless

I want to take you in my arms and dissipate your hurting, transforming into gold, into the strength and love that which you are, but you just forgot

I want to forever remind you of your greatness, when you don't want to see it, when you forget where you've placed it

I want you when you don't want me in muck of mental chaos tearing you away from your hearts true desire

I want you when you want me back, when sweet sea breeze unveils that illusions that hold you down,  forced compliance in the name of fear

I want you, all of you as you navigate the icy precipice of your existence, like rubix cube drifting in the ocean of your beingness, anxiety flooding the base of your inner temple as you try to figure out this life 

I want to unravel the mystery and miracles this life serves up, inviting the chaos, the pain the anxiety with open arms and a heart, gaping open like blue whale feeding on plankton, open to receiving all of you, all of this journey

In unity. Together. 

In a delicate game of tug and war, balancing each other out, whisking together the ingredients of our individuality. Taking a risk into the unknown, trusting in blind faith in the flow of what is, sinking deeper into confidence and safety with each passing breath tickling our souls reminding us this is exactly where we should be, gentle reassurance. 

To keep going. Full of fear. Risks abounding. And to continue to trust,  to feel, to move forward in all the beautiful chaos. Because, we don't have to figure it all out right now. Or ever.